like hells said you come on here. rant, cry, ask for advice or just to get a hug - vitual though i may be there is always someone willing to give you a shoulder to cry on. everyone is so friendly and will do their utmost to help anyway they can. try and get yourself to some meets, with 4 boys i know that can't be easy organise , i have one and its a handful!!!
i'm based in bristol, you're south wales , maybe not too far away.....could always meet up if you like, don't have a car but train is easy to get to places. i bet you are doing a fantastic job