First post so please be gentle with me
My husband left me in May after 15 years together and 3 children, he just packed his bags and left after a row. Looking back we probably hadn't been getting on for a while but I didn't think it was that bad, anyway over the last 2 months it has been a bit of a nightmare as he keeps changing his mind and coming back and then leaving again. He tells me he loves me but find it had to live with me!
I am now 99% sure it has been decided its all over, some days are good and I feel really positive about the future, and other days I'm just scared of being on my own, I've been with my husband since we were 17 and it feels strange not to have him around any more. I'm living in our lovely house with the children as it close to school and he is renting a room in a share house! (his choice). He has the boys every other weekend and Tuesday evenings but I find it so hard him coming to the house, I just don't want to see him and I'm scared I'll get upset. when he dropped the children off today I hid in the kitchen and let them come to me so I didn't have to see him on the doorstep.
I'm rambling a bit I know but its been a bad day. Would love to hear anyone else's positive single parenting or any advise on dealing with ex's on the doorstep.