I have decided to bow out of SWK for a while, I wasn't a big poster so wont be missed, but its just something I need to do.
I hated xmas anyway as that's when my ex left but while we were all happily opening xmas pressies this year my brother-in-law phoned to say my mom had died. My ex, yes the one that I had been moaning about the other day, took over and sorted me and the boys out, he has been really good.
I am leaving for a while though as I just need to sort myself out, everything around me seems to go wrong.That's my mom & brother in the space of a few months. I only post on here when I need help, I want to be one of the ones telling good stories of how things have turned around for me and how happy I am, but I am not and not sure I ever will be.
I force myself to go to the pub meets and honestly this is not against anyone there but I just don't know what to say. I never quite realised how shy I am but I don't have any interesting or funny stories to tell, I just don't fit in and I never will. I have my boys who I love to bits but they are the only thing keeping me going. I hate everything about my life at the moment but I know there are people out there with much bigger problems than mine and I cannot keep moaning.