Well it's going to be 2 years in April since I lost my wife.
Today was her birthday and it's actually been a good day. Went for a walk this morning on the beach where her ashes are scattered. After school we bought a ballon and we all wrote a little message and attached it to the balloon and released it. Tonight we've had a birthday cake. Certainly more smiles than tears in our house today.
I know that 12 months ago there is no way I would have been capable of doing the ballon and cake but today it felt like a day we could celebrate and think of as a good day rather than one we have to dread.
Christmas had been ok for us as well so I haven't spent the last 4 weeks dreading the thought of today, which is what happened last year.
I am finally beginning to believe there is a life out there for me and can feel a lot of the old "me" has slowly been returning. Have even found lots of improvements in my social life over the last few weeks
I know April will perhaps not be as easy but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.
For anyone out there suffering from a loss all I can say is the memories never fade but slowly but surely the pain does and there is hope out there and there is still a life to be lived