Well this is my 4th xmas alone, but in the past i've had my ex-boyfriend there for part of the day, but it was never a proper xmas.
This year i am with somebody new, and we have been together nearly 7 months. This one is different, and I think we both know it. We are already planning our future, and he makes me happier than anyone has ever done. But he is going home to Wales to be with his family for xmas. He is going on the 23rd and returning to see me on Boxing Day. I am really dreading it, as I find xmas really lonely, even though you have your children there it is really hard when there isn't somebody else you care about to share the joy of seeing your children happy and magical. I am luckier than most, and my mum is coming to stay xmas eve, as she knows i am taking it badly this year. We are going to have a lovely time, have a nice xmas eve watching it's a wonderful life, so will probably cry buckets (neither of us have seen it!) and it means i have support on xmas morning, while the kids destroy their carefully wrapped gifts.!! It is very hard to keep smiling on your own, when your sad and lonely.
sorry, probably depressed everyone even more now. i just want my xmas to be the one i've always wanted.
Hopefully next year............